This may be the most personal thing I’ve posted on my blog. I’m sorry for all the people who followed me because they like the comics and Glee talk. This is my update on life.
Next month I’m going in for an operation.
A few months back, my mam noticed a lump on my neck. I didn’t, mainly because it’s my neck and I don’t see it as much as everyone else does. Anyway, I went to the doctor’s. He didn’t know who it was. I was sent to a specialist consultant. He referred me to another hospital for a scan and more tests.
Actually, while I’m here, let me tell you about that fiasco. I walked in for four doctors, waiting to see what I was smuggling in my neck. It was the most uncomfortable experience of my life. They didn’t talk to me, and one used my breast as my desk. He bruised me. Asshole.
Anyway, yesterday I got the results.
I’m not a doctor, so I will explain it as it was explained to me. Maybe someone more medically minded can correct me or explain it better.
Lumps are graded on a scale of one to five. One is benign. Five is malignant. A four or five means I have cancer. I got a three, which means they can’t tell me one way or another.
This operation will tell me what’s happening. They’ll remove half my thyroid, see what they’re dealing with. If it is thyroid cancer, which it may well be and I am preparing myself for, I will have another operation later and have the rest of my thyroid removed. And since I’ll be sans thyroid, I’ll have to take pills for the rest of my life.
I will be scarred. And obviously all operations have their side effect and risks. I might lose my voice for a while, or maybe a few years.
All and all, yesterday was not a good day for me.
I’m trying to be flippant. Realistically, I’m just scared. I’m sharing it with you guys because I suck at being personal. Your regularly scheduled ranting will be back soon.
This month is also Spectral Visions! I’m super excited for that. A lot of work has went in to planning this year, and this time, I get to do a workshop! I’ll be talking about the Bloody Chamber. If it goes well, you can expect a post about it. If I don’t post about it, assume something went horribly wrong and I don’t want to talk about it.
You’re welcome to secure a place though! We have Professor John Strachan and Dr Alison Younger delivering lectures, some amazing workshops and the always popular guided fantasy. Plus a book launch I’ll be talking about soon…
And finally, this month is my birthday! I’ll be 22. I don’t know if I’m doing anything, considering that the operation will be on in a week. I’m just excited for all the Taylor Swift jokes. I have no regrets over how much I love T Swift.
That’s it for me. Just assignments and blogging, really. I’m taking this month as a month of positives. Good things will happen. I hope good things happen to you too.
And so, dear readers, we reach the end of another post.
Let me ask you this: how is your June looking? Have you ever had an operation? And what’s the big event you’re looking forward to?
Let me know your thoughts.